theradiostatic

I never update this thing anymore because I truthfully have nothing to say most of the time. Well, maybe I do but I prefer venting to people. Anyways, some changes have taken place in my life that I feel are for the better and by some miracle my midterm grades were pretty decent.

Sometimes though, honestly, I wonder if my life is going in the right direction at all. Am I being too impulsive? Am I not thinking about what's going to happen later? Am I going out too often and not focusing on academics? Am I missing out on experiences I should be having at my age? Thankfully I am behind a semester in college because I would prefer staying. I'm not ready to graduate in a year and a half. Maybe by the time I'm 22 I'll be ready but for now, fuck it.

I also am struggling with my feelings in regards to certain things...whether to continue or fall short. I don't think I have a choice though. It's already too hard to control myself.

Yesterday I got a free black kitten. I named him Salem and he is the cutest thing EVER. He is only eight weeks old so I can't get him declawed or anything special yet...but he is seriously the prettiest thing in the world!